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Name: Jeannie
Location: Philadelphia, Pennsylvania, United States
Gender: Female
Interests: Reading, writing, acting, RPGs, Anime, Psychology, learning, foreign languages, traveling.
Expertise: I'm working on figuring that out.
Occupation: Mini-Mom
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  Aphrodite5588
Member Since:
3/5/2006
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| So, I haven't updated in forever. I really don't have too much to say though. I've been keeping a diary, and trying to write more stories and stuff. I have a new job at the Italian Bistro down in Center City. It's pretty cool. I'm a hostess there, so I have to dress normal and nicely. *shudder* Nah, it's not too bad, lol. Anyway, nothing much going on here. | | |
| Okay, so, update-age. It was my birthday a couple of hours ago. I worked all day, and then went to a carnival afterwards. Fun stuff. I think I'm getting really stressed out and need to get away for a while. There's just so much, and yet so little. I feel like I'm being suffocated or something. It sucks. 13 days until Nick. Woot. I want to write more, but my well of imagination seems to be on the fritz. How depressing. Maybe I need to start writing again. That seems to be the best anti-depressant for me. I think I want to go camping all by myself for a couple of days or something. Which is ironic, 'cause I've been feeling really, incredibly, depressingly lonely lately. Like nothing I do is good enough, that I'm not worth a thought, let alone a second and that I'm easily forgotten. Seriously. I can't seem to keep friends for very long. Urgh. Anyway, I feel like I'm whining. Eclipse in 4 months. Woot. | | |
| Oh man you guys! Nick graduates bootcamp May 18th and then he gets to come home for 10 days. ^_^ I'm excited. And then Christian Prom is the next day. Wait until you guys see my dress! Guess what. Last weekend I went to this absolutely amazing concert. It was Chris Cornell's solo concert. For those of you who don't know who he is, he's the former lead singer of Sound Garden and Audioslave. And then, oh man, I got to meet him and the bad that was traveling with him afterwards, (ecept for 1) Yogi, Jason, and Peter. They played amazingly. Oh! And since they were all sitting behind this bar and we were on the other side, Jesse lifted me up on it so they could sign my pants (with much enthusiasm by the band. I think they found it funny). My job is going well. I really like the people I work with. I'm trying to get my cousin Melissa a job there, too. I hope that works out. She's an awesome chickie. It's funny, she has and has had dance class with Emily before I even knew Em. Everybody knows everyone's family, apparently. As another example, I've known Nenny's cousin, Sam, since 9th grade. Crazy. Oh, and my birthday is in a week. Anyway, have to go meet the cuz! <33333 | | |
| Hi. Lol. I'm kinda really sad today. You see, my friend Nick, whom I love dearly, has gone off to Boot Camp. He joined the Marines. And I feel really guilty because I did not want him to leave, and I suppose that's not fair to him. I know that he's wanted to be in the military since before I met him. I'm glad for him, too, because he got his wish and now he'll never have to worry about his Mom sending him away to live far from home. But, now I won't be able to talk to him on the phone every night or any night until he comes back before they ship him off somewhere. And I doubt he'll have the time to send me any letters. And I hate this 'cause now I'm making this all about myself. I should be happy for him. I want to be happy for him, and in a way, I am. But I can't shake this sadness. He's been there all this time, since we were 11 or 12 when he moved here and I feel like I was taking him for granted or something. And I barely even said goodbye properly. I feel like there's more I coulds said. *sigh* I suppose that saying really is true: You never know what you have until you lose it. Okay, off the depressing stuff. Sorry, but I HAD to rant a little. I'm going to Drama and Youth Group and Awana. They make me happy, lol. Heather is growing up so well. I love her so much it hurts. And I'm proud. She's just wonderful. And now, I have no idea what to do with my life. There's so many options. I should have had it all figured out already, but no. I slacked off and procrastinated. I don't know what to do. Should I start college? Or should I wait until fall? Where am I going to get a job? What do I do with myself. I feel like this huge burden on my Mom. It's like, no matter what I do, it's never enough. Oy. Darn it. I went into the depressing stuff again. Well, I'm getting my check cashed tomorrow. Emmy and I will be able to finally get our Sailor Moon DVDs. Yay!!! Lol. I've wanted those DVDs forever and now it's so close. And, not only do I get to have the DVDs, but I get to shar them with someone wonderful. You guys are the greatest, you know that? You're the most amazing people ever. I can't even name you all, lol. Thanks. you guys, for just being so awesome. <3333 | | |
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